Mixed Blessings

Heap of things to be grateful for . . .

chocolate . . .
day job . . .
3 BR home I live in all alone . . .
bathroom I don't have to share . . .
pinks and reds in all my rooms . . .
no one to take the remote away . . .
everything right where I left it . . . .
only have to cook for myself . . .
hearing "I love you" after so many years . . .
shoes . . . .
purses . . . .
costume jewelry . . . .
full-size bed all to myself . . . .

Stack of things I wish were different . . . .
someone to share my space with . . .
someone to cook for . . . .
someone to reach for across the bed . . .
someone to hug me at the end of a bad day . . .
someone to say "I love you" every day . . .

Small list of mixed blessings in my life for today. Tomorrow is another day!

My Bling

I love my bling! I love it so much . . . embarrassed to say . . . I must be able to see it every time I walk into my dressing room!

I have more . . . lots more . . . really . . . sinful how much I have . . . it is tucked away in a jewelry armoir and a dresser drawer . . . I will show you my sinful nature later. When I get to know you better! lol

I love it all! Not just earrings either . . . I have bling I don't need . . . . I have bling I don't deserve . . . I have bling I have never worn! I just like it. My sinful delight . . . .

These are one of my favorite pair of earrings at the moment . . .

I like them so much . . . I had to get them in burnished brass . . . .

I received these as a Christmas gift and I love the bling of them all!

I collect pins as well . . . and I say I collect them because I very rarely wear these . . . . not that I don't like them . . . because I DO! I just don't dress up for the office or church like I use to . . . I might have to start doing so even if it means being overdressed . . .

These are a few favorites . . . I liked the size of this one . . . well . . . because I am a Texas girl . . . and in Texas bigger is always better . . . trust me on that one . . . in Texas . . . size DOES matter . . . lol

I like the colors and shape of this one . . . .

I love the bling of this one . . . .

These are a few of the essentials I wrote about earlier my job allows me to purchase . . . there are more . . . I am just not sure you have time . . . lol

Decisions

I love the Dallas Cowboys . . . sometimes they disappoint . . . like they have this year . . . . no play-offs . . . . I have to cheer on another team . . . I feel like a traitor . . . and sometimes they don't . . . sometimes I hate that I love the Cowboys . . . because just when you think they are going to win . . . . they don't . . . and you have to cry about it . . . go to work and defend your losing team . . . sometimes I display my love for the Cowboys with my sense of style . . . this involves major decision making . . . first . . . I have to chose the right bling . . . .

Should it be this . . . .

or this one . . . .

Once that is out of the way . . . it is on to another decision . . . . these . . . .

or these . . .

or maybe these . . . .

As I go along . . . it gets easier . . . less choices are always easier . . . this one . . . .

or this one . . .

Now choices are made for me . . . . some of the bling is missing . . . but you still get the picture . . . I am hoping after my birthday I will have to make another choice but that is still a ways off . . . .

Finally . . . the decision is out of my hands . . . . . . .

Some decisions just come naturally . . . Miles Austin is the man! Were you expecting Romo? Please!

My Kingdom

This is where I spend 40 hours of my precious life every week. It helps that I am rewarded . . . I wish I could say well . . . but it pays the bills and I am happy about that . . . sometimes . . . I even have enough left over for essentials and I will eventually show you what these are as I go along . . .



Let there be no doubt . . . I love my job most times . . . I work with some great guys that make me laugh every day . . . they sometimes feed me . . . . they buy me chocolates . . . . they gift me things . . . . oh . . . and I also work with Amber . . . but that is a story best shared another time.



This is my castle . . .



This is my throne . . . .

This was my chariot today . . .

It is all good!

My Blog

I was looking back over my postings and realized this did not turn out as I expected! But then most of my life has been as such.

November 2008 I made the choice to take care of myself and as I did I shed 85 pounds. 2010 proved to be much more than I bargained for and slowly added 35 of those lost pounds. Not sure how they found me but they did. None the less, I did change from one person . . . .



to another . . .



Both from the outside to the inside. Along the ways I gained and lost much more than pounds as well. I lost my beloved Pontiac Sunfire in the July 4th flooding . . . I lost two adult children from the home . . . OK . . . I didn't say all I lost was bad! :) I gained insight into who I am . . . what I want from life . . . more importantly . . . who I might want to share this life with.


I met men along the way that helped me arrive to this decision . . . . quite a few of them. There were some who I cannot remember their names and then there are some I can . . . . Michael . . . Joel . . . Robert Z. . . . . Ruben . . . Larry . . . . Adam . . . . Joe . . . Jesse . . . . Ray . . . Rumaldo . . . Harvey . . . Alfred . . . Robby . . . Robert R. . . . . . . . some were nice . . . .




and some were not . . .





and some were somewhere inbetween . . .



All together I was able to arrive at a decision about my life and for that I am grateful for each man. They all had good and bad in them and they all taught me what it is I am willing to tolerate and what it is I am not . . . what I must have in a relationship and what I must not have . . .


Along the way I have moved twice and each move was more than I bargained for but I arrived in a place I can call home. I love the space I have landed in . . . the landlord is not quite what I had hoped for but then nothing in life is ever perfect. If it were all perfect how would we know what to be truly grateful for. I like my home . . . the space . . . my neighbors who leave me alone . . . the privacy . . . my dressing room . . . laundry room . . . the neighborhood . . . close to family . . . . fabulous kitchen layout . . . great water pressure . . . the space . . . . my neighbors who leave me alone . . . . the privacy . . . lol . . . OK . . . I think I made my point! There are some things I do not like . . . the pest problem . . . the drafty windows during the winter . . . window units for air conditioning . . . . but over all it is all good.

I traveled to NH alone to retrieve our belongings from storage. 2,075 miles all by myself! I am woman . . . I am strong . . . I am brave . . . I absolutely CAN do it all alone if I must . . . hear me roar! This only taught me I do not have to wait until I have someone to do anything I want to do. I can play golf by myself . . . I may have to cheat until I can get better at it otherwise it WILL take me all day . . . I can travel to Riodosa and try horse racing all by myself . . . . I have always been OK with dining alone, catching a movie alone, bowling by myself . . . I CAN DO ALL! Who else? Besides, I so much enjoy my own companionship! I will as the saying goes fake it until I make it!

I discovered many new things as well . . . Zumba . . . P90X . . . FaceBook . . . texting . . . OK . . . I didn't say they were all good things!


I allowed many things to cause me to lose focus of what is important but I shall regain that focus . . . I will continue with what I love . . . Zumba . . . dating because when it is with a new man it can be so much fun . . . working at my present place of employment . . . loving the Dallas Cowboys . . . cultivating my relationships which are important to me . . . continue to blossom into the social butterfly I have always been meant to be . . . . laughing . . . . caring for myself . . . . eventually . . . . my life will come all together and I want to be in my best condition I should be and be able to recognize when I am ready for it.